When somebody asks me this question, all information stored in my brain seems to flush away as they stare at the blank expression on my face and utter the enthusiastic sound effect of “uhh….” Talk about being put on the spot, there are obviously so many to choose from, I can’t decide what to tell you first. Internet, music, and food – because is there anything in life that is more important at a young age without getting into ‘real-people’ challenges such as jobs, housing, investments and everything else your parents constantly remind you about? So forgive me when someone much older than me, and by much older than me I mean someone at least twice my age, asks me what I like and I cant be bothered to think of a proper answer that is longer than a couple of words. This also applies to relatives and other random aunts and uncles I didn’t know existed until a family reunion.
I probably will be less inclined to give you an answer when I feel that you are just prodding into my extremely uninteresting life because even if and when I do tell you what I think my interests/hobbies are, you will either go “oh right” and nod exaggeratingly or ask endless questions that will make me feel like I am being interviewed. Perhaps it’s partially to do with the fact that I don’t like talking about myself and that I prefer to be left alone on certain occasions such as family reunions where it can either be really fun or just super awkward, usually the latter drawing from personal experiences.
I also feel like I am an incredibly boring in comparison to some people. Okay, a lot of people. They list all their achievements in life and I’m thinking “man, I’m starving, I wonder whats for dinner tonight” or if being realistic “oh crud, my life is worthless in comparison to theirs. I have accomplished nothing as big as they have. Just smile and laugh along with everybody else and look like you are somewhat engaged in what they have to talk about”. Hard not to compare yourself with everyone else but when they say that they climbed a mountain or have some bizarre hobby when I said that I enjoy watching tv shows on my computer, I feel that I may have to re-think a lot of things and then go watch tv shows on my computer to feel less bad about myself.
Sometimes we don’t realize our own achievements and while we feel like we have accomplished next to nothing, we actually have. It just feels like everybody else has generic interests and achievements so there is no need to state what they are. Graduating from university, playing a certain instrument, travel, sports, tv/movies and so on. We don’t want to get into too much detail because you just know you will be asked questions you have already previously answered to about ten different people and have to re-tell stories and experiences when all you want to do is be on the internet, listening to music and chomping on food.
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